So I’m pretty sure no one looks at my tumblr (or tumblr in general anymore). So I’m just gonna write. You can chose to read my scrambled thoughts or not.
I’m pretty disappointed in myself. In high school, got hella good grades, so involved with community service (through church, Big Brothers Big Sisters, FAYA), and I guess you can say I really really liked to dance (and I wasn’t half bad.) I was proud of what I accomplished and how “successful” or “talented” I thought it was.
But where am I now? Stuck. I don’t have school anymore so grades don’t matter. Already graduated college and got that B.A. I was involved in this org called With and helped put on a benefit show. But now I am too busy at work and my internship to do much anymore. Lastly I quit dancing. I wish I didn’t I think the last time I was every on a stage was my junior year of college (2009/2010).
The pains of growing up suck… big time. I don’t know how to deal with this transition in my life and I wish someone would guide me!
Not to say my whole life is a mess. I definitely am thankful to have a full time job and to be an intern at SIFF (Seattle International Film Festival). I have a loving boyfriend and family who I see all the time and can’t get enough of.
But I’m stuck. I gained about 30ish pounds since graduating high school :( The biggest I’ve ever been. I look in the mirror and hate how I look. I guess the whole image thing got to me finally. I’m not happy with the way I look. (yeah yeah i know I need to be the change if I really want it. Too bad I want it but I’m lazy…)
All I ever do is sleep/work/watch Modern Family (I do love that show though.) I stop my uke, photography, writing. Everything I love I stopped.
And I dont know how to go back…
But I guess it’s a step by step thing. 1st world problems. I need to figure out a way to bring everything back. I want what made me me back in my life.
Dont get me wrong. I love the people around me. My family, my friends, my love. I just have a few things I want to fix. But I don’t know where to start.
Other than my life story, OBAMA IS PRESIDENT AGAIN! :D
Yeah… He didn’t do such a hot job the first 4 years. But change is a progressive thing. It takes more than 4 years to rebuild a country and I have faith he can do it.
Washington passed Ref 74! Gay Marriage is now legal in the state of Washington! I am so happy everyone can have the same rights! (at least in our state). Been bumping Same Love by Macklemore and Ryan Lewis ft. Mary Lambert all dayyyyyy. If a same-sex couple would get married, in no way shape or form would it effect me and the way I live. Just give me more weddings to attend to! I hate how those fighting against Ref 74 say, “Civil Unions are the same.” You’re just saying “Separate but equal” to me.
Anyways. Off politics. Thanks for reading